Saturday, April 4, 2009
if it was like a fairytale

It has been a long week. I'm glad it's Sunday tmr.
went down to church at around 12 for preparation of games day. honestly, i was having doubts again. I was really scared that the kids would not be able to enjoy themselves, or that i would screw up everything. It's amzaing how a simple prayer on a bus can help me so much. after i prayed, i felt peace. God answered my prayer, and i should be thankful at all times :D
can't say i'm not disappointed with some, let's just say.
I'm really loss for words.
I'm tired. sometimes, all i want is a shoulder to lean on. someone who i can trust.
School has been bad recently. deadlines deadlines and more deadlines. test, orals and more tests. how i wish i could put down everything and go with my family to the kelong on Good Friday weekend. But i know if i go with them, i'm bound not to study. i get distracted too easily. i need to be motivated before i will really get down and study. i've got a really good motivater beside me. SO I HAVE MADE A VERY DIFFICULT DECISION TO NOT GO. AND ALSO TO NOT GO FOR ER PROGRAMME. i feel damn sad. haix
went down to church at around 12 for preparation of games day. honestly, i was having doubts again. I was really scared that the kids would not be able to enjoy themselves, or that i would screw up everything. It's amzaing how a simple prayer on a bus can help me so much. after i prayed, i felt peace. God answered my prayer, and i should be thankful at all times :D
can't say i'm not disappointed with some, let's just say.
I'm really loss for words.
I'm tired. sometimes, all i want is a shoulder to lean on. someone who i can trust.
School has been bad recently. deadlines deadlines and more deadlines. test, orals and more tests. how i wish i could put down everything and go with my family to the kelong on Good Friday weekend. But i know if i go with them, i'm bound not to study. i get distracted too easily. i need to be motivated before i will really get down and study. i've got a really good motivater beside me. SO I HAVE MADE A VERY DIFFICULT DECISION TO NOT GO. AND ALSO TO NOT GO FOR ER PROGRAMME. i feel damn sad. haix
